14.6.08

我不會放工

我是一個很少會想家的人。畢竟一直獨居,常常公幹,也不是常常可以看見家人。

不過,我上一次見到家人已經是什麽時候了?早幾天媽媽發短訊給我,問我會否回家吃飯。我爸媽的家距離辦公室只有一兩公里,可是咫尺天涯,一直沒有辦法回去。

然後,有一天晚上媽媽打電話給我,問我下班了沒有。那時候才七點多。七點多,她居然問我下班了沒有,我又累又沮喪,衝口而出的答案是:“我不會下班,我是不會下班的了。” 她問我是什麽意思,我說,在她睡覺以前我是不會下班的。

昨天晚上,我告訴媽媽我可能可以晚一點過去看看他們。媽媽說她會留一點湯給我。不是爲了媽媽的湯,事實上我真的累了,真得很想回家,很想見見家人。我爸爸感冒了,我也沒有辦法回去看過他。

我的辦公室是無敵維港海景,可是最近天氣很差,暴雨連連,行雷閃電,對着這樣的畫面,只覺得無奈。爲什麽工作需要這樣?

過去兩周,總是工作至筋疲力盡才回家。十一點、十二點、兩點 、四點、五點,都試過了。

得不到誰的體諒。結果,誰開心了?

深夜的時代廣場,人造草地終於沒有人了。夜深了,燈滅了,人未眠。


12.6.08

你是我的陽光

工作太忙,只好躲懶。今天跟大家分享一個感人的小故事。B送給我的。 

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You are My Sunshine, My only Sunshine

Like any good mother, when Karen found out that another baby was on the way, she did what she could to help her 3-year-old son, Michael, prepare for a
new sibling.


They found out that the new baby was going be a girl, and day after day, night after night, Michael sang to his sister in mommy's tummy.

He was building a bond of love with his little sister before he even met her.

The pregnancy progressed normally for Karen, an active member of the Panther Creek United Methodist Church in Morristown , Tennessee.

In time, the labor pains came. Soon it was every five minutes, every three, every minute. But serious complications arose during delivery and Karen
found herself in hours of labor.


Would a C-section be required? Finally, after a long struggle, Michael's little sister was born. But she was in very serious condition.

With a siren howling in the night, the ambulance rushed the infant to the neonatal intensive care unit at St. Mary's Hospital, Knoxville , Tennessee .
The days inched by. The little girl got worse. The pediatrician had to tell the parents there is very little hope. Be prepared for the worst.


Karen and her husband contacted a local cemetery about a burial plot. They had fixed up a special room in their house for their new baby but now they
found themselves having to plan for a funeral. Michael, however, kept begging his parents to let him see his sister. I want to sing to her, he kept saying.


Week two in intensive care looked as if a funeral would come before the week was over.

Michael kept nagging about singing to his sister, but kids are never allowed in Intensive Care. Karen decided to take Michael whether they liked it or
not.


If he didn't see his sister right then, he may never see her alive. She dressed him in an oversized scrub suit and marched him into ICU. I looked
like a walking laundry basket.


The head nurse recognized him as a child and bellowed, 'Get that kid out of here now. No children are allowed.' The mother rose up strong in Karen, and
the usually mild-mannered lady glared steel-eyed right into the head nurse's face, her lips a firm line. 'He is not leaving until he sings to his sister' she stated.


Then Karen towed Michael to his sister's bedside. He gazed at the tiny infant losing the battle to live. After a moment, he began to sing.

In the pure-hearted voice of a 3-year-old, Michael sang:

'You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray.' Instantly the baby girl seemed to respond. The pulse rate began to
calm down and become steady.


'Keep on singing, Michael,' encouraged Karen with tears in her eyes.

'You never know, dear, how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away.'


As Michael sang to his sister, the baby's ragged, strained breathing became as smooth as a kitten's purr 'Keep on singing, sweetheart.'


'The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my arms'. Michael's little sister began to relax as rest, healing rest, seemed to sweep over her.

'Keep on singing, Michael.' Tears had now conquered the face of the bossy head nurse. Karen glowed.

'You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. Please don't take my sunshine away...'



The next day...the very next day.. the little girl was well enough to go home .


Woman's Day Magazine called it The Miracle of a Brother's Song.

The medical staff just called it a miracle.

Karen called it a miracle of God's love.

NEVER GIVE UP ON THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE.

LOVE IS SO INCREDIBLY POWERFUL..

Life is good.

8.6.08

悲傷的色慾都市


星期五與好友看《色慾都市》電影版。下班時踫到同事,一聽到我去看這部電影就說:“今天晚上你和我所有認識的女人都要看這部電影!留下我們干嘛?”敢情被老婆丟下了。我笑說:“我們不關心。”

帶着輕鬆的心情進場,原來以爲這和過去六季的電視劇不會有太大的分別,本來嘛!就算編劇隨隨便便寫一個故事,我們還是會進場看看Carrie和她幾個老友的近況的。

然而我預計錯了!這個故事居然是挺有心思的,和過去幽默輕鬆的氣氛完全不同。整個故事雖然算是大團圓結局,但幸福來得一點不容易,以致我覺得,整部電影居然彌漫着一種悲傷的氣氛。

故事在Carrie和Big購入曼克頓區豪華Penthhouse開始,他們更決定結婚。在難以相信的一片喜氣洋洋之下,突然一切開始出錯。

Miranda專注事業忽略Steve以致丈夫出軌。從來大女人心態的她,一下子被擊倒。爲了意外懷孕毅然酒保男友結婚,改變自己,成爲一個妻子,一個母親。然而,Steve的一次出軌粉碎了他們之間的盟約。她硬起心腸離開,無法原諒深愛着她,其實悔恨無比的丈夫。似乎我們一直只知道Miranda緊張工作,甚至忘了她也是一個可以心碎,會流淚的女人。

Carrie高調籌備婚禮,Big第三次再婚忽然感到畏懼。在婚禮前夕一個晚上Miranda因爲踫到Steve,心氣大懷,居然衝口而出對Big說了一句:“你們是瘋子才會結婚!婚姻會把一切都毀掉!”Big居然在婚禮的早晨猶豫不決,在無法聯絡上Carrie後離開婚禮會場。Carrie打電話給他,他說:“我來過,現在我走了,我做不到!”Carrie手中的電話墜落地上,她悲傷的說:“我早知道會這樣。”

Samantha在癌症康復以後對陪她渡過難關的明星男友心生感激,毅然放棄她的生活方式,做個忠心堅貞的好女友。然而五年過去了,她卻發現她是爲了他而活的,她壓抑自己的需要,一切以他為先。上一次感到快樂,已經是六個月前的事了。在邁進五十歲前,她忽然覺悟,她還是愛自己多一點。於是她吻別她的愛人,繼續她的人生。男友問她:“你會找到更好的嗎?”她說:“我不知道,但我願意冒險。”

Charlotte是唯一一個比較戲劇的人物,但是看到好友們受盡打擊,不禁惶恐的說:“你們都是這麽好的人,但看你們得到了什麽?肯定會有壞事發生在我身上的!”



雖然在最後,Miranda原諒了Steve,Carrie和Big開花結果,然而,散場時我還是覺得悲傷。或者,當幸福來得這麽辛酸,得到了還是會覺得心酸感槪。

當然,這部電影還是有很多笑位,像Samantha的人體壽司,Charlotte在墨西哥的肚瀉災難,四位女角的對話一如以往的尖銳精彩,但我更欣賞的是一些溫馨的小情節。

像Carrie的新助手Louise是個二十出頭對愛情充滿憧憬的小女孩,在她身上,Carrie,甚至我們,仿佛看到了從前的自己,那夥熱情勇敢的年輕的心,我們也有過。Carrie被遺棄後,叫Louise把Big的電郵全都放到一個她以後都看不到的地方。後來,Louise要結婚了,留下了一個寫着Love的鑰匙扣給Carrie,並對她說:“我找到了,這個留給你。”於是,一年後的一天,當Carrie要打開放置Big的電郵的加密文件夾時,她想起了密碼就是Love。

像四個女主角的友情,令人感動。Miranda在除夕感到寂寞悲傷,Carrie找不到的士,會從Manhattan徒步走到Brooklyn陪伴她。Carrie被遺棄,三個老友會幫她擺平一切,並和她一起去散心,日夜相伴,連上班不能請假的Miranda,不敢去墨西哥這種“落後地方”的Charlotte也沒有例外。Charlotte為朋友不值,看到Big會生氣得哭,氣得連羊水都穿了!

我想,雖然這個故事的愛情部分挺寫實,沒有很多天真的童話,然而,Fairytale的部分卻在於她們四人之間的友情!現實生活裏,我們都會失戀、失落,孤獨,但是我們都不是Carrie,我們不會有這麽愛護朋友的Charlotte、Miranda和Samantha。這種無私的友情,怎麽可能發生?有時候,我想,有好友如此,也許愛情不圓滿也不算什麽了。